NO GASOLINE

The walls are covered With Meme’s paintings We ran the island Not sure what happened There’s always stars And the short walk home Frances smoking And Cristian gone If you tried Just to be lonely If you were happy Without your family I know you hate her I know you dream about Being choked out On the mattress I wish you passed on a little anger I just feel sorry You’re getting older It’s hard to see you When you need help from me for once And Rachel bugs me But she makes you happy I don’t forgive you but I sure love you You’ll go run out into traffic All of those summers That I felt smaller Than all my cousins They’ve passed to nothing I have a father That I believe in I don’t know how I got so lucky The granite eagle The empty flatbed The water tower I get distracted To turn the heat on To stop from screaming To trail the fog along the harbor

I’m walking in your shadow Staying on the trail You’re yelling at your mother Me and Sloane downstairs You put your arm around me We laugh at someone’s joke I’m pulling at a pinecone You still smell like smoke The thing that I’m afraid of I keep it in my blood I love it like an old friend I don’t see enough You thought I was asleep Or maybe didn’t see me I knew what you would say But couldn’t quite believe it I walked a mile to Barstow With nothing in my ears My gift for going quiet Is stretching into years

I’m broke again It’s taking time to settle You’re writing poems About going back to California Drank too much Nothing I can’t handle Cool with sweat Underneath a neon street sign Walking south Silver hands Dressing up What’s the matter I forgot Jack got sick Cleaning gloves Thumb in my mouth Making love You got me there Easy work Feeling strung out With morning overhead Orange and red Overslept Half an hour Reading in the bathroom The hotel pool Bad enough he came inside you Every night Visions rise Off the road Weren’t you somewhere Getting stoned Blame your hands Blame yourself What’s the matter I can’t tell Take a shower Makeup on See no future No open tongue Time unravels Late on rent See no future No intent You got me there Easy work Feeling left out With morning overhead Orange and red Overslept

I have seen the dragon You did sleep beside him We watched the wind Everybody’s laughing Why’s that your boyfriend isn’t Where you been We don’t need no doggone Your heart won’t work that long You move on Sorry Scarlet I am Only what I am In the yard

Thumb in my mouth Torn up t-shirt Summoning sound No safety features But never you mind It’s none of your beeswax I said I’d be fine And by god I mean it Merge onto the pike And pump up the jams for the friends you’ve forgotten about Pull up the seat And pound on the wheel cause this life is the death of me now When what I want is what I have I’ll know because of my helipad But I can’t stop the motion babe The rain comes down in Hipstertown Feel the feelings you feel And pump up the jams for the friends you’re still hanging around Don’t know what I said But I know I’ll be here again tomorrow When what I want is what I have I’ll know because of my helipad But I can’t stop the motion babe The rain comes down in Hipstertown (Ahhhhhh)

No magic mirror I’ll keep you here Scraped up your leg Salt in your head Watching from inside Watching daddy lie

Home for the summer Called a friend to watch the dotted lines Focus on the plaster Maybe then I’ll know what’s on my mind I can see that there’s nothing you need But the shoes on your feet and a raincoat Gonna be around long enough now Can we talk about how it’ll be Now you’re wearing that old look in your eyes Like a firefly hitting the window And you’re keeping time Hung like a lantern Holding on to something solid and still Strung between the branches And all the while the termites take their fill I can see that there’s nothing you need But the shoes on your feet and a raincoat Gonna be around long enough now Can we talk about how it’ll be Now you’re wearing that old look in your eyes Like a firefly hitting the window And you’re keeping time I can see that there’s nothing you need But the shoes on your feet and a raincoat Gonna be around long enough now Can we sing about how it’ll be Now you’ve got that look in your eyes Like a firefly hitting the window And you’re keeping time and every season Ended up believing Coming up with reasons for me And you’re keeping time and every season Ended up believing Coming up with reasons for me And you’re keeping time and every season Ended up believing Coming up with reasons for me

Talking to me while I’m cooking you dinner All about Isa, sitting at the counter Said being with her makes you feel older And that’s why you like her so much Christmas lights and the oil is crackling High school’s right here in the walls of this kitchen Remember the box dye at three in the morning Turning your hands bright red When we raced on the freeway and split off and went home I think you said you loved me but I really don’t know at all You just sat up back to the wall and you cried Hands on your temples That’s what I recall The first night alone in the woods in New Hampshire You told us your girlfriend was not a good person With fear in your eyes like a dog on the 4th None of us knew what to say We drove into town in the morning for groceries Isaac had got this idea about sharing A financial commune, retire together Thought he would do us a favor And now a moment of silence for all we’ve been given The four of us flat on our backs in the river and then When we came down and made ourselves dinner The fear had laid down at our feet Laying face down on the beach in Chicago Isa’s been asking you all types of questions Like if you still think that she’s pretty enough And whether I still make you cry And now a moment of silence for you and your girlfriend I think that I’m letting you slip through my fingers, but hey In the interest of pooling our money I’ll hold on as long as I can

Wringing out your hair Putting on your rings Tryna make you laugh Leaning on the sink Driving up the dirt road Summer afternoon Sun above the treeline Nothing else to do Remember when you lost it Leaning on the trunk Picture of your parents When they were still in love The water The basement The pins in your hair Finding heaven Standing in the driveway A storm in the air You can pull my shirt Over my head I can fold the laundry Read the books you’ve read It only ever comes now When I turn to you Standing in the front door Looking for the Moon A sign that I’m important What you choose to share In between the floorboards Carpet on the stairs The water The basement The pins in your hair Finding heaven Standing in the driveway Storm in the air Standing in the driveway Storm in the air

Debbie’s in pajama pants Waiting for the van Sitting on her walker Smoking cigarettes again Up against a gray wall Picking at her skin Ask her what she’s got today She giggles like a kid If I ever saw you Walking down the street I’d ask you where I knew you from Or look down at my feet Climbing through my window Pissing in the creek Staying up in Founders Just to drink ourselves to sleep

Honey’s not gonna rot, baby I’ve been driving around cause I’ve been so down again lately You’ve got daddy’s jeans and tattered sleeves, mama I’ve been letting you in and then out and then down again lately No gasoline Fourteen degrees I want you to promise me I want you to say it out loud Your armchair apology, honestly I’ve been Pacing around Sarah don’t say you wrote a love song You got holes in your heart your Sonata won’t start in the winter I’m not sure I ever let you see me I’ve got things I don’t say I’ve got music that plays from the TV No gasoline Fourteen degrees I want you to promise me I want you to say it out loud Your armchair apology, honestly I’ve been Pacing around And I’d never tell you But there’s nobody else My last lonely winter From what I can tell

Cattle on the hill I don’t think we will Had it down until Kissing on the floor Walking to the store Could I ask for more When it’s Halloween And the money's gone And you’re high again Walking Avalon You get through Honey I do too You’ve got an analogue For the place you’re in In the living room Barely listening I get caught Coming back to you Maddie’s got it right In the bathroom light I would waste my life Kissing on the floor Walk me to the store Could I ask for more Turn off the highway Dog in the street If you’re unhappy Take what you need